The post right here, is to the only person that he will know who he is. No hidden meaning, but to others you might not know what i am talking about.

I guess as much as the days went by, lots of things had happened. Like once i told you before, my heart is locked and armored, the key is gone and the shields up, i am not taking rolls for now. You are almost like a person passing by a house that it looks strange to ya.

Why am i writing to ya, is maybe could at least put a peace of mind for ya. Your selfless care and concern just prickles the bit of pressure and responsibilities that goes on in my heart. Its not that i don't want to accept, but i just dun wan to mislead. I had broken enough hearts to know when to stop.

Years before I missed that chance which may had or may had not been there, someone being there and then when i need it, held to that thought for too long, years later did i realize i should move on, but i cannot so far. I don't want you to end up just like that. Me being there when you need it, is because you thorough deserve someone to care there and then, and i am thankful that you let me do so. Is been long that i have someone to call or msg to at times when i am free or bored, (= but the journey through these few months was not easy for me either.

Helping you through, i told myself, you are not to walk into my heart. This may sound harsh, but listen through i beg of you. I did not grant your wish there and then, was because i did not know what you wanted, only after reading your say did i realize you wanted commitment, which is not the time. We had shared alot, but not enough i would add. Walking into your heart wasn't my intention either. I learnt alot from you through this while and I am glad that i can contribute your smiles in lots of way.

All i want to say is that I realize i recovered from the fall but i have no more strength to carry on in taking up the next commitment, as i never settle for the 2nd best. You are not the 2nd best, dun too deep in this. (= I am saying that we might have a chance when i am ready but now is not the time. Take things slow, i know you are. I am just tired and need a super long break to recover and couldn't find the time. Like what you always tell me, I am telling you too, YOU WILL NOT BE ABANDONED, even if abandon me first. SMILEZ.

You are doing well so far, don't be too dependent. (=

To: SQG
Frm: DMZ

I am in the midst of logging up all the other days, so don't feel weird when u see 2 different post at the same time... haha.


OBTC Investiture

I slept at 2am after finishing the flashback slides and adding suitable music. I love songs, but when putting them into different events, i find it hard )= Well, the investiture went well. I got people laughing at the captions, which i am happy about.. haha Well done to all teachers, finally graduate as a TO now. Today is the first time and the last time i am wearing the SCI rank.

I would say, coming in 2 days, we will be moving onwards to November, right?

The month seriously passed very fast and I would say with things happening here and there, going for courses after courses, admin work here and there, with a blink and not thinking, i am stepping into November.

You can actually say i am heartless and move on, which i won't deny, or i am never sincere in giving much thoughts to it, but in fact, I am just using all these work to numb my pain. (= I am fine, like i said, its the answer for me to move on without regrets. I am just glad that i am not given much time alone to ponder and ponder over the pain. I am not strong and is just i choose to ignore the pain or run away which i don't find it wrong, i faced it and thats that.

Uniform Collection

Well, OBTC is starting in a weeks time and HOBTC is starting in 2 months time. Today is my HOBTC uniform collection. Even working in the same building, coming to work earlier than the applicants, i am not the first to collect my uniform la. After collection, we have a briefing. I managed to come up a new scandal for my batch mates, haha (= Up to date, there is only 5 females in the course and about 35-45 other males, so i was shrugging and shaking heads. We were sharing, if we put Lianyu in a squad of males, is either she goes crazy first, or she will drives the males crazy. I guess is the latter, yupz?

This is my new rank:

Whoah ho.. today, I typically spend the whole day at ubin. Let me fill in the details.

Boat Refilling

We arrived at campsite with breakfast and start to prep the boat for the journey to LRB. I was bad enough, I did not want to take the White Dolphin, so DY decided then fine, he will be in Cleaner Werssel while we let Mr Bala experience the White Dolphin himself to know what we are experiencing all these while. After the disembarking and such, we got on the journey. DY asked me to take over the wheels and have me go through full speeding, which of course, I enjoyed it. I never got the chance to really bring CW to full speed during the camp activities as the chances of hitting onto 1 of the kayaks are high.

When we were near LRB, DY took over the boat for berthing and we disembark. I was stopped by one of the regulars over there and when i saw his name, i almost burst out laughing, but he was so serious, I maintained a straight face. His name was Chew Kim Leng. hehe WO Chew, i din really expect to see someone of the same name as you.

Lunch time, due to the fasting month, the NS boys were not having their meals, so Mr Bala decided to drive to Changi V to buy lunch. As the same, we drove CW out to get lunch, only on the way out, did i realise, i learn a few more places around LRB. After lunch, DY and I went back to campsite on CW, he drove all the way back, as we were taking another route. hehe..

Gruka's Camp

I was called on duty for the Grukas who were coming for their leadership camp. Goodness, they were a strong bunch, as well as a chaos bunch i would say...

I find myself jinx la, whenever I am on duty for rescue, I seriously will need to rescue. Luckily i got sharir on the boat today where he has 2 star, if not, i think i will be lost, rescuing the open deck kayak, when is a chicken and a duck talking. I have problem understanding them, and vice versa..

But eventually, the day ended well la.

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Today, I was sitting in office, clearing the parts of the website as much as I can. Time is running out of course, in another 2 months time, will be the presentation of the website to everyone.

 

After work, I went to meet Mr wong for movie (Final Destination). It is not my kind of movie, I would say. Haha. Typically, there was not much time for a seat down full dinner, so we decided to just smuggle some food in to munch. Though thinking back now, we are smart enough to munch finish before the movie actually went to the gruesome part.

 

I would give the movie 2/5, as its not my type of movie and I do find some part exaggerating. But in overall, Mr Wong, thanks for watching the movie with me (=.

Well, the day started worrying for people and rushing to meet Miss Neo at CCAB. After talking to Mark, well, I just decided, we shall let things be.

 

Today is Hitlary Challenge Final Day, and everyone had rushed for this event for few weeks now. I am in charge of the sea unit booth today, to showcase to the P5 & P6 students the CCAs under the UG sector that they can join when they enter Sec 1. Partly, I am excited, as I always like being around with these younger kids, with them, you can actually get into their mood and forget about your troubles for that while.

 

Preparations were kinda rushed, as the place that my booth supposed to be doesn’t fit into my expectation, but nevertheless, live through it. After prep was done, photos taken, we went to buy drinks while waiting for the chicken rice from Ms Soh to arrive (= I was hungry of course.

 

I met the Nanyang Girls as they were here to perform the Lion Dance, and at about 3plus, we started work. Some of the kids look lost, while some really look keen. I will never forget that I had to nanny a young boy, so cute for that 5 mins, brining up down just to find his school. Do hope that he will continue BB since he had already started so young =).

 

Everything wrapped up at about 8pm, either I was too tired or the chicken rice was still in the stomach, I do not feel hungry at all. Went to find Mr Song and the other officers to chat a while and hitch a ride back home.


   

 

Well, finally I hope, I can have a bit of rest now. Signing off.

Finally, I went to Army Open House (AOH) after talking about it for so long. Well, lets have this episode starting…

Morning, I woke up and get out of the house. On the way giving morning call as well as confirming the people who are coming. Weather forecasted in the morning was bad. I got people calling me to say they are not going or is there any wet weather program. Haha. Esther brought along Lun Ai (her neice) for this trip. She is super cute and shy, but i did my best to engage her along the way.

Well, by 9am, we met together and finally by 9.30am, we set off to AOH. This is the 2^nd time that i am going Pasir Laba Camp as the other time was during 2006, National Camp. The very first station we went, was the live firing range. (= I was super excited, as this is the first time firing a rifle.. )= I was preparing Lun Ai, what to expect during the firing and assuring her that she need not be scared. The others were having a fun time teasing me being motherly towards this young little girl.

Whoo hoo, I got marksman on my first try, dun mind me being so excited about it, asi am always a bo bo shooter in revolver mahz.. We wanted to go for the rides but the queues were too long, so we have to skipped it. Next we went to the gallery to look around. I went to see the Leopard as well. We only got the overview during NDP and hearing all about it, so just went to see what is it like inside. To me, all these looking around is new of course.

So all in all, after the last stop at the museum, we got out of AOH and headed off for lunch at JP. We went NYNY and as promised, I was to treat Lun Ai ice-cream (=

 

Shall post more photos when available (=

My day started in the morning that I woke up and get ready to go Kumon centre to see my boss, get my pay, get my Kumon Certificate. hehe. Ya, I graduated from their Mathematics programme at long last. (=

 

I moved on and then went down to SIM for the HR Management Course Briefing and the Open House. Whoo hoo, I met Aqidah there, my secondary 1 & 2 NPCC squad mate. She is a super nice lady, soft spoken and super independent, which I admire her the most (= After that, I followed her to AMK Hub while waiting for ZiWei to reply sms on dinner. After Aqidah left, I was kinda hungry, so I went to get a big cup of yogurt and window shop around, the time spent there alone, was good, hardly have the “me” time. When Ziwei smsed back, I make my way over to Dhoby Ghaut, PS.

 

After we met, I wanted to go around and find my magazine, “AUGUST MAN”, haha where Daniel Henny is on cover page, hehe (= When we were walking from basement to level up, I was called by the group of CIIs, Michelle, Huiping, Philo, Zhiguang, Mark and some others. Apparently, they went to AOH on today, which I am going tomorrow with another group of CI including Ziwei.

 

Dinner was settled at Ajisen Ramen, which reminds me of having lunch here with Oi Peng a few times. haha. During Dinner, UC smsed, as we agreed on a CSS (Coffee Session), so ZiWei accompanied me til UC appeared.

 

We went to the TCC that Shiwei usually worked at, Beach Centre, and haha, when the waitress came and took order, I found her familiar, so I asked:

 

“Are you from TP?”

“No, Ma’am, you still remember me? I am from SJC de, we were there for the SYF 2006 audition for GOH, you were the trainer who had to do the elimination when we are too short for the contingent.”

I was typically shocked la, haiz, old le la, cadets all grown up le, UC was having his time kayz, laughing off.

“Oh ya, I remembered now, I went to your school the year after to promote Sea Unit as well as Jolene became a CI as well.”

“Ya ya. (=. will get your food arrived shortly kayz”

“Thank you”

 

UC then says, its good to have you around, then can get discount, see, ur FAX works, even here oso have network…

 

Sigh.. No denial to that lahz, eventually, we chatted for an hour plus and then decided to go off, we got a staff discount from the sweet gal. (= thank you so much, and I am so sorry, I cannot remember your name, but I do remember ur face, forgive me (=

 

Right now, I am going to turn in, as tml will be a long day I guess.

 

Signing off..

Whoah, today I went off with a super high day... Here's how it started...

 

I had Mr Bean (soya beancurd with just that little sugar syrup) and then i was kinda hyper. I started work as normal and moved on to the website pages editing. Halfway, got ZW's msg to lunch, and told him, i am on veggie diet today.. haha (=

 

Lunch came, as Kopitiam was closed, so we decided, to go for NYNY instead. I ordered a mushroom sandwich, while he had ribs. While waiting for the bill to be settled, i was offered with a candy floss.. hehe, i happily started eating it.. which added to the hyperness... (=

 

Things din end low.. went on to the higher key.. After lunch when i came back, everyone was getting ready for the photographers to come into office for the Coffee Table book, photo shoot.. Henry Sir and Angie were the chosen model, after they were done, the photographers went for the cadets.

 

It was in mid-afternoon, about 3pm plus near 4pm, Ma'am came running, to get me go down to the shoot, where my girls are involve.. hehe, being the assistant for a photo shoot, is fun, eventually, a little “extra”, where main conductor himself has a few assistant. Haha, apparently one of the assistant up there is kinda shocked by the way I conduct the ladies.. keke, nahz, this is not the worst.. ahah.. Well, after some incentives offered to the ladies for a hard day’s work, we managed to wrapped the whole shoot. (= Bravo, Sec 2s, well done, I am impressed that after such a long day in school, range and then the shoot, you all did well, no worries, pizzas will be there. (=

 

Eventually the shoot ended at 6pm sharp, I didn’t make it to class for my P6 boy. Came home, have a dinner, and then FBing again.

 

Shall write off for now..

Goodness gracious, if yesterday weather was HOT, you should had seen my temper, things weren't anything better..

Seriously, entertaining some LKK in camp is no fun. Bad day yesterday, so i am not going to talk about. No point, things had already passed.

Today as usual, Sunday routine, I will send lunch to LW. After chatting til about 5pm, I went home and change.

It was arranged that Chee Kian, Syikin, Zhiwei and Me will be gathering at Orchard ION for Sweasens' Ice Cream Buffet.. haha.. Surprising guest, Raymond.. whooo.. he, came with a toothache, swollen gum, did not eat anything.. poor thing. The ice cream buffet was alright, Chee Kian is kinda true on his words, not worth it the way me and syikin ate, we ate kinda little.. coz we were too full from the dinner.. Well, Zhiwei left early as he still have to settle things in his camp for his trip next sunday... The rest of us, sat and talked for a while before all heading home, as next day is working day...

Yawnz.. I am sleepy already.. I am settling my SIM application these days... I really hope to get into HR Management...

Nights.